brunch: pork sandwich with veggies, water
dinner: 2 chicken legs, rice, water, corn, chicharon
exercise: uber abs workout
dessert: coffee flan

Current Mood: tired

day 313
brunch: rice and ribs, water
dinner: homemade chinese chicken stir fry! gingerbread cookie, couple of advent calendar chocolates

day 314
brunch: cheerios, milk
dinner: 1/2 pad thai at madam mam's, thai tea

day 315
brunch: 2 green chile pork tacos with avocado, chips and salsa, fruit punch, water
dinner: p-terry's double, no cheese, pickles, tomatoes, lettuce, onions; fries, diet coke
exercise: walking walking walking to/during/from trail of lights lol

i think it took us longer to walk to the trail of lights than walking the trail itself. they definitely cut it this year, apparently saving the city hundreds of thousands of dollars. buuuut...oh well. what can you do.

rode the bike all day today. had a few layers of clothing on topped with a jacket and backpack. i felt like a little astronaut. riding on the back of a motorcycle on the highway (especially at night) can be a bit stressful. for one, you've got nothing between you and the pavement, and when you're going 70mph with cars whizzing by you and pushing your little 250 around, it gets kind of rough. and B, riding on the back of a bike, you're a bit higher up, you can see a bit more than the driver as far as peripherals go, BUT you have no control over acceleration or maneuvering. despite the bit of nerves and a brisk night, it was fun. there's just something about going that fast that makes you feel like you're flying. =)

back to the grind tomorrow. things on the to-do list that MUST be done include: revising resume's and cover letters and applying to a minimum of 3 jobs, aaaaaaand a legitimate workout. must. do.

Current Mood: amused

breakfast: 1/2 pancake
lunch: rice, ribs, water
dinner: rice, ribs, spicy tofu/pork stuff, water, slice of coffee flan

so...i suck at this exercising thing. but i've been stressing out lately. but i guess that's not really an excuse...because exercise is supposed to relieve stress. ehhh oh well. i shouldn't stress so much though. being out of a legitimate job for...7 months now?...isn't anything to get worked up about...especially when i have a place to live, food on the table. it could be worse. a lot worse. and i should be grateful i have the support system that i do. i mean, i am grateful. i just wish i could stop stressing. my body's doing weird things. like not letting me sleep at a reasonable hour. buh.

happy note...might be going to NOLA for new year, though. roadtrip! i miss my friendddds. =(

and i came across this poem. i like it.

The clock of life is wound but once,
And no man has the power
To tell just when the hands will stop
At late or early hour.
...
The present only is our own,
So live, love, toil with a will,
Place no faith in "Tomorrow,"
For the Clock may then be still.

-R. Smith

more tomorrow =)

Current Mood: weird

day 310
breakfast: pbj waffle
lunch: rice, chicken, ham, corn, water. spoonful of coffee flan
dinner: tuscany chicken soup (progresso...mmm), 2 reese's pb cups

day 311
lunch: beef and veggies soup, water, couple brownies
dinner: jj's italian sandwich, salt and vinegar chips, diet coke

ok...so...no exercise these past couple of days. i'm the worst =( and bad news on the job front...i'm out of work starting next friday...sooooo....yeah. we'll see what happens. what an adventure.

Current Mood: worried

brunch: chicken salad, 4 little caesar's crazy breads, water
exercise: 30 minutes elliptical, 20 minutes treadmill at 12min miles, 20 squats with 10 lbs, 20 lunges with 10 lbs, 25 dead lifts with 10 lbs, 40 crunches, 40 reverse crunches
dinner: roasted chicken, rice, chicharon, water

back to exercise! feels so good. currently watching kill bill. i forgot how weird this movie is. kinda tired. more tomorrow =)

Current Mood: happy

breakfast: honey nut cheerios, milk, chocolate soy milk
lunch: 2 slices of leftover pizza, water
snax: ~4 full truffles, 1.5 peppermint patties
dinner: nachos and salsa, water

watched a muppet christmas carol today. what a great movie. i totally forgot that scrooge is alfred from the latest batmans. love the music, especially the christmas scat that bob cratchit (kermit) and tiny tim do. there's just something about this movie that gets me every time i watch it. it's a classic...with muppets. i mean, you can't go wrong with muppets. i'll give you another example. see? brilliant.

also saw 25th hour with edward norton. i really liked it. very straightforward. and i love edward norton. love him.

Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: christmas scat - muppet christmas carol

day 307
brunch: chicken spaghetti, water
snax: yogurt planet! - cheesecake/praline/strawberry yogurt with blueberries, couple cheesecake bits, almonds and granola (mmmm!)
dinner: whataburger - 2 justaburgers, water

day 308
brunch: jalapeno and sausage kolache, water
dinner: 2 slices of supreme digiorno pizza, slice of brandon's butter cream graduation cake (SO GOOD.), chocolate soy milk

it's been a pretty fun and ridiculously crazy couple of days. ut won by the skin of their teeth, bv's dad was in town for his graduation which turned out to be a strange and unfortunate ordeal...but it's all okay now, and i came across this, which just happens to be friggin' hilarious.

i am the happiest girl in the world =)

Current Mood: loved

Considering the amount of time I spend thinking and reading about happiness (and, I hate to admit, telling other people why they should be happy) , I ought to feel much happier than I do.

I am content most days---and contentedness is more than enough. I no longer have a problem with being "just content" because I've felt less than that before.

However, I've also felt more.

I feel my life is a bit unbalanced and out of sorts right now. Unsettled, that's a good word to describe it. So unsettling is this feeling, this anxiety, in fact, that it physiologically manifests itself as a very uncomfortable aching of the bottom of my heart. If I watch TV or eat, it goes away. :) If I pay attention to it, it worsens and creeps up to my throat.

Anyway, I hope to make 2010 a happier year! I sincerely hope we all do. Let me know if you sign up, too!

And just as a reminder (to myself)---YOU create your own happiness; nothing and no one can make you happy.

brunch: rice, sausage patty with some saucy stuff, water
exercise: 30 minutes elliptical, 50 incline sit ups, 20 5lb weights side lifts and front lifts
dinner: fried rice, crab meat and asparagus soup, noodles, walnut shrimp, some kind of green leafy veggie
sweetums: ben and jerry's dublin mudslide (this is a preemptive post...it just sounds so good right now)

it was my cousins' first reconciliation tonight. so adorable. off to work on my site =)

Current Mood: bouncy

breakfast: waffle
lunch: caesar salad with hardboiled egg whites, water, flan
dinner: couple bites of chicken noodle soup, chicken/green bean/mushroom/quail egg curry stuff, rice, water

emme was ridiculously happy today and it made my life. she's so cute when she smiles.

made up TUMBAA's logo and sent it out. got pretty positive feedback, especially considering "the final countdown" is proudly incorporated into the design. maybe i'll put that up later. or it might be on my new site. which should be up and running this weekend. in theory. kbye =)

oh, and i just stumbled on this. i really liked this movie. it was different, exciting, and i think pretty insightful to how we tend to deal with things we don't understand. some people want to explore while other people want to destroy. human nature's a funny thing.

Current Mood: numb